I Long To...

I'm in one of those contemplative moods today. Our daughter turned 15, got her driver's permit, ate a huge adult sized steak for lunch, and looks like a grown woman...I'm getting old! I've also felt odd today, my neck hurt and my ear was numb, so I decided I was having a stroke, I'm not, but thought I was for the good part of the day...last year I was having a year long heart attack...I'm not a hypocondriac...but I'm working on it! I long to be a productive person. I don't want to be average, mediocre, or to just get by. It is my hearts desire to make a difference in my world, to touch others in a way that leaves a deposit, and impacts the world around me. My success and significance no longer depend on the recognition of denominational leaders or the approval of those surrounding me, though I value both, I want to please the Lord...and myself. Recently I've come to realize that if I'm not happy with me no one else can be, I must be content knowing that I've been obedient to the Lord. Some days I wonder if I've made a difference in any one's life, if there is anything that I've done that really matters...I'm not whining, just saying I long to make a difference. It doesn't have to be in the limelight, I just want to hear Him say...Well Done!