Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I Long To...
I'm in one of those contemplative moods today. Our daughter turned 15, got her driver's permit, ate a huge adult sized steak for lunch, and looks like a grown woman...I'm getting old! I've also felt odd today, my neck hurt and my ear was numb, so I decided I was having a stroke, I'm not, but thought I was for the good part of the day...last year I was having a year long heart attack...I'm not a hypocondriac...but I'm working on it! I long to be a productive person. I don't want to be average, mediocre, or to just get by. It is my hearts desire to make a difference in my world, to touch others in a way that leaves a deposit, and impacts the world around me. My success and significance no longer depend on the recognition of denominational leaders or the approval of those surrounding me, though I value both, I want to please the Lord...and myself. Recently I've come to realize that if I'm not happy with me no one else can be, I must be content knowing that I've been obedient to the Lord. Some days I wonder if I've made a difference in any one's life, if there is anything that I've done that really matters...I'm not whining, just saying I long to make a difference. It doesn't have to be in the limelight, I just want to hear Him say...Well Done!

1 comment:

Exqsme said...

I have often wondered what people say about me and Troy when we can not hear them. I don't know.. maybe I don't want to.. but I do know what I have heard about you... and your family, and they are all positive wonderful things. They recount of how you and your family has touched their lives, how you have taught them things and how they have gained much just from knowing you. I know that Troy and I highly valkue your opinion, your thoughts... and we are honored that you would count us as friends. You and Julie have touced our lives in ways we will always be so greatful for. I know you wern't looking for a pat on the back.. but I decided to give you one anyway.

Thank you for being obediant to God and doing the best that you could. It was so much appreciated.